One step forward then two steps back...

So i was at work this afternoon when one of the nurses informed me that little Alyssa is back in the PICU. :( I was devastated. After her surgery to place the trach, she was doing pretty well. Now, not so much. Apparently she basically coded again for about 4 minutes, but they brought her back (again) and put her on the ventilator. So not only is she in the PICU, she is now not breathing on her own. It's just sooo unfair. She and her family don't deserve any of this pain at all. I know i'm not supposed to question God, but why? why is she suffering like this? If God wants to take her to heaven, he needs to just do it already. Some of the nurses have said they are afraid she's never going to wake up. I want to believe she will, but i fear the worst. I went to see her on my dinner break and had to leave after about a minute of being at her bedside. I felt the tears coming to my eyes and couldn't take it. She's lying there, so helpless, so lifeless. The lights may be on, but no one is home. Tests showed her brain activity has basically been reduced to nothing. What kind of quality of life will she have from this point on!? Honestly! How much more can her little body take? It will take a miracle to get her back. All i can do is pray. As if all the problems with Alyssa aren't enough, her mom tells me that they might not get the new house they need to bring Alyssa home. It makes me angry inside. This family deserves a freakin' break and they have had nothing but heartache and sorrow for the past 4months. I may not be able to offer much besides love and support. But i will give them all the love and support i have. I'll be praying everyday for Alyssa and her family. It's in God's hands now.